try to be cool (T.T)

yesterday(isnin), im back to uitm jengka.
acutally on ahad, i received call from my parent (abah)...
he told me that my nenek a.k.a wan saya is gone~

it just hard to me to believe it, but it true..
that my wan is gone for ever...

this entry is especially to wan. i love you so muchhhh. all over my heart.
to be honest, im playing to be cool but my heart masih sakit.
i accept all that His willingness, saya redah....

but, im a little bit sad and terkilan because i cannot see wan for the last time, i cannot talk to wan for the last time, and more sadness is i cannot hold wan for the last time..

im try to be cool in front of all people, my friends, and my family... but still it cannot be helped!
im lost, and i try to be strong. all bottom of my heart, i want to say that I LOVE YOU, WAN... so MUCH.....

and now, stress with my study... test banyak sangat!!! wish me good luck! ^^